I have a thousand things on my mind – law school does that to you.  I suppose anything does that to you… but it has never seemed so challenging to me before.  I suppose that law school is a time to grow – to bloom, if you haven’t already. 

 We debate a lot here over the “everyone” function of the school email.  Too many of us find our voice via the everyone feature.  I used it a few times.  It is convenient…and humbling.  I don’t use it anymore.  I also try not to waste time focusing on extracirricular activities though as well.  I have enough to do. 

I am realizing that my innate desire to be liked conflicts at times with my desire to have a voice.  A voice can be shouted down… or shouted at.  I don’t like that.  So I’m attempting to curb my perceived need to be heard.  It has been educational.  At a minimum…

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Perhaps the past couple of weeks were not as bad as I thought them to be.  I also feel that advertising my challenges might not be appropriate.  The bottom line is that in law school, wherever it be located, you will face challenges.  They may be environmental, they might be personal, they might be medical… or they might be some other things.  The important thing is remembering that “such is life.”  You might face those crossroads anywhere… but you will have made the conscious choice to attend law school – whatever your motivation – and so you will make any subsequent life choices from that institution, unless you choose to leave. 

I committed to going to law school because I felt it was the best option for achieving my goal of not having to kill my body through physical labor like my fathers did.  I also felt that, having a family, I had an obligation to have the ability to earn enough money to provide for my family if one of us couldn’t work.  I didn’t feel like my BA in History was sufficient to accomplish that. 

It isn’t a high and mighty reason… but it works.  It will get me out of bed…actually I refuse to quit because I can’t see taking on educational debt without having anything to show for it.  I don’t want to be the guy who says that “I went to law school for a year.”  But that’s my extra motivation.  Plus, I still am enjoying it.  I’m proud of getting here… and now I should get back to work so that I can get good enough marks to stay.